Heart Surgery
The word i got for this week is transformation.
And to do that, is the heart surgery i need. Prov tells us to guard our heart for from it springs the issues of life (Prov 4:23). Jam 1:14 - 15 tells us the reason we sin, that there is desires. Roms 1 tells us of the wrong transformation, one where we are transformed wrongly to a sinful life.
But as God manages the deepest issues in my life, the removal of desires not for God, i find myself confronting my greatest struggles. My deepest battles against loneliness. The pains i buried, to ignore. I realise that deep within me is a cry. A cry that i have not heard for so long. And that cry i need to deal with. The cry to be heard.
I hav forgotten how to listen to hearts. I hear but do not listen, i have ears but speak too much. I need to remember to hear the cry of hearts, the tears that people cannot see. The pain that people ignore. I need to go back to the root of listening.
Last night, God told me again, love my people. Love my people without expectation of return. Love my people like I love them. In the face of rejection, God continues to love.
Anyway i need to confess, i have not taken up the ministry of God seriously. God gave me the ministry of JYC, and i have wasted the time there. Wasted the people who join JYC, the leaders. Everyone's time i have wasted simply by not taking the ministry seriously. How many youths have i caused to lose their hope in righteousness. I dunno, but i realise that i have squandered my responsibility away. Being lazy. I need to recapture the burden from God.
And to do that, is the heart surgery i need. Prov tells us to guard our heart for from it springs the issues of life (Prov 4:23). Jam 1:14 - 15 tells us the reason we sin, that there is desires. Roms 1 tells us of the wrong transformation, one where we are transformed wrongly to a sinful life.
But as God manages the deepest issues in my life, the removal of desires not for God, i find myself confronting my greatest struggles. My deepest battles against loneliness. The pains i buried, to ignore. I realise that deep within me is a cry. A cry that i have not heard for so long. And that cry i need to deal with. The cry to be heard.
I hav forgotten how to listen to hearts. I hear but do not listen, i have ears but speak too much. I need to remember to hear the cry of hearts, the tears that people cannot see. The pain that people ignore. I need to go back to the root of listening.
Last night, God told me again, love my people. Love my people without expectation of return. Love my people like I love them. In the face of rejection, God continues to love.
Anyway i need to confess, i have not taken up the ministry of God seriously. God gave me the ministry of JYC, and i have wasted the time there. Wasted the people who join JYC, the leaders. Everyone's time i have wasted simply by not taking the ministry seriously. How many youths have i caused to lose their hope in righteousness. I dunno, but i realise that i have squandered my responsibility away. Being lazy. I need to recapture the burden from God.
posted by W | Wednesday, October 31, 2007
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