Of dreams and visions...

Had a nightmare, a real one last night.

I dreamt that i was burning a 'fu' (which is this piece of yellow coloured paper that the monk will pray over some prayers. It is a chinese tradition thingy that is supposed to protect a person) ANyway for some reason, after i burnt it, two hands, i don't know if it were mine or not, grabbed my throat and strangled me. I tried to break free, tried to shout out or anything. But could not. At last, somehow, i managed to shout "in the name of Jesus". And i woke. I am not sure if that really happened or not, but it was a freaky nightmare. COuld not get back to sleep till after i prayed.

Oh well. Eating before bed is not a good idea.

See ya

Starting Out

Hey

In about a month or so, i shall be on my way to New Zealand. Feeling apprehensive but ok, i guess i will be ready.

It is a suprising turn of events. After O levels, i always thought i will end up studying in NZ due to my bad chinese. Wonders of it all, by God's grace i am still able to go to way Down Under to study.

I guess things that we wish do happen, just not in the fashion we wish them to occur.

It has been a journey. From a last minute decision late last year to just give it a shot, to discovering that we have been accepted, to actually setting out on the tedious process of applying for actual enrolment, every step of the way has been easy. All i had to do was to stand up and be counted. And truly, i give thanks that God has been faithful, when the last thing i am is Faithful.

A few weeks ago, i had a nightmare about leaving. The fear of being alone. I am scared, definately, but also excited. Heck who would not be. Fear of loneliness, of not settling in. It is akin to setting out on a holiday, just that this time it is alone and to a place for 6 months. (I can hear rachel going, hai ya you, so many people go already....)

In any case, i will chronicle my events from application till now. Submitted my applications for both hostel and for enrollment last friday. Today went down to NZ immigration department at Takashimaya and discovered that horrors of horrors, i was not able to apply. Neither was rachel and one other girl whom we were with. SO i guess it is any trip down that we need. Hopefully soon. WOuld not like to drag any longer.

Oh well, that is it. THis journey i will walk.